slice and dice

[tomorrow is the fateful day of the neck surgery.
i am scared shitless - for serious.]

so much going on in my head right now.
people to see. places to go.
i don't think any of it is going to happen.
this saddens me greatly. i am sorry.
i wish i could be in 20 places at once.
but then you wouldn't have all of me.
it just wouldn't be the same.
time will make things right.
in time we will be together again.